I am so excited! I am trying out something which I had never done before. Chanced upon my course mates' conversation and found out that the camp instructors which she had been looking for don't have to be the professional certified ones. Therefore, I am in!


Gonna lead a group of Woodlands Ring Primary 5 students. Gonna be so fun! I have no idea how am I gonna handle it but there's always a first in everything. I'm gonna learn how to do raftings, how to cross rivers and I have to brave the night walk by myself (all instructors have to go thru it alone!). Simply so cool.


Though there may be other companies who will pay more, at least the pay I'll be getting is of the standard market pricing. Anyway it's more of an experience that I'm going for, not the pay.


Hope I won't get too shacked out at the end of the camp. Haha!

Christmas is coming. Found some really cute URLs. Enjoy!


http://www.syfc.org.sg/christmas05/12days.htm


http://www.syfc.org.sg/christmas05/hokkien.htm


http://www.syfc.org.sg/christmas05/ecard04/index.htm

It seems that I keep attracting the same kind of people. Apparently I will find this common trait in almost all of them. And that common trait is that they belong to the same nationality.

Oh come on.

Probably because they belong to the largest country in SE Asia, that's why. And there are alot of them here in Singapore. You can throw a rock in Orchard Road and there is a high chance that you will hit the head of someone from that country.

No more of this anymore, please.

Why do I have to do certain things?

I dread working at my current workplace but I still have to slog it away because I NEED MONEY! I want to work only a couple of days a week but I have to work more because I want to save up more for my upcoming KL trip. So that I can have more money at my disposal and shop all I want.

Why did I think that I can fit into a size 4.5 pair of shoes just because I can fit into a size 5? It was kind of urgent so I bought the size 4.5 because the shop ran out of size 5. It fitted just nice so that means that my toes are cramped together and I cannot even wiggle them freely! I've decided that I'll probably give it some time and see if it will be better once the shoes get seasoned, else I will get myself another pair of shoes. I hope that I won't have to waste any more money, I need them for my KL trip. Ah! I dread the thoughts of squeezing into the shoes again tomorrow when I go to work.

I'm doing opening shift. 9.30am in the morning! ARGH!!!

Why do I still get so turned off by anything that are Indonesian? Jason was looking at the menu outside this Indonesian restaurant and I pulled him away immediately. I told him, "You looked at the menu for what? Not nice one." Conclusion: Anything that relates to bad memories leaves a bad taste on the tongue. Bleh!

Kinda having bad mood now. I flared up when I found out that my mom threw away this soup concoction that I had created for my pasta. I screamed at my brother for not telling my mom that I need it for dinner though I had already instructed him to. What a coincidence that my parents reached home while my brother was having his shower and when he came out from the bathroom, the saucepan had already been washed and placed back onto the rack. SO.... QIAO....?!

Come to think of it, I flared up over such a trivial matter. What happened to me? PMS? Haiz.

I wanted to vent it out by relating my bad mood to Jason over the phone but he was too tired and wanted to sleep. I can't possibly ask him to listen to me when he's already so tired. He already made the effort to meet me up today despite of his tiredness. So I should be contented enough. I guess I will just go to sleep and forget about it. It may be a better day tomorrow yah?

Night.

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P/S: Just read an article about stress. When you are under stress, the body will release this stress hormones and it may cause certain malfunction either physically or mentally, or both. But I know of people who actually became more active physically or mentally when they are under stress so I guess it has to depend on the person's makeup?

After 2 years of selfless service, a man realized that he has not been promoted, no transfer, no salary increase no commendation and that the company is not doing any thing about it.


So he decided to walk up to his manager one morning and after exchanging greetings, he told his manager his observation.


The boss looked at him, laughed and asked him to sit down saying,"My friend, you have not worked here for even one day."


The man was surprised to hear this, but the manager went on to explain.


Manager:- How many days are there in a year?
Man:- 365 days and some times 366


Manager:- How many hours make up a day?
Man:- 24 hours


Manager:- How long do you work in a day?
Man:- 8am to 4pm. i.e. 8 hours a day.


Manager:- So, what fraction of the day do you work in hours?
Man:- He did some arithmetic and said 8/24 hours ie. 1/3(one third)


Manager:- That is nice of you! What is one-third of 366 days?
Man:- 122 (1/3x366 - 122 in days)


Manager:- Do you come to work on weekends?
Man:- No sir


Manager:- How many days are there in a year that are weekends?
Man:- 52 Saturdays and 52 Sundays equals to 104 days


Manager:- Thanks for that. If you remove 104 days from 122 days, how many days do you now have?
Man:- 18 days.


Manager:- OK! I do give you 2 weeks sick leave every year.
Now remove that 14 days from the 18 days left. How many days do you have remaining?
Man:- 4 days


Manager:- Do you work on New Year day?
Man:- No sir!


Manager:- Do you come to work on workers day?
Man:- No sir!


Manager:- So how many days are left?
Man:- 2 days sir!


Manager:- Do you come to work on the National holiday?
Man:- No sir!


Manager:- So how many days are left?
Man:- 1 day sir!


Manager:- Do you work on Christmas day?
Man:- No sir!


Manager:- So how many days are left?
Man:- None sir!


Manager:- So, what are you claiming?
Man:- I understood Sir! Thank you sir for all the money you have been giving me for not having worked a single day!

Went for the SIM bash @ ChinaBlack yesterday. I don't think I will step into that place again though the place is quite nice. I simply don't like the bouncers. I wonder if they left their brains at home or what. Oh nevermind.


All I can remember of the bash is that everybody's singing along to the songs and dancing happily away and that I'm Hi-ing and chatting with friends. Oh yah, I was dancing away when I realised this guy looked so familiar. I kept giving him glances until I asked if he's from my secondary school and indeed he was! He thought I was checking him out. Haha! He's my band junior. Good to see you again! You are all grown up now. Haha!


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I am such a photo whore!

Read his blog again. Another tinge of sadness came over me. All those time we spent together seems to come to a naught. He left me out of his life totally. All those time we spent together, can't they remain in him as memories? Does he have to purge everything out and forget about the whole thing totally?

I've already taking it as though I met a bad person and paid a hefty amount for such a 'valuable' lesson. I had wasted my energy loving him then. He can be so concerned over this little 'sister' when she is having a 38-degree temperature yet be so nonchalant when I was having such a bad diarrhoea and fever then.

Such a SMEGMA!

Read this article on 'Big Boys Don't Cry'.


There is a chinese saying that goes 'nan er liu xie bu liu lei', loosely translated as 'boys shed blood but not tears'. Crying is deemed as a sign of weakness. It has always been a misconception that only girls are allowed to shed tears.


In Desperate Housewives, Gabrielle's husband got slapped by his mother because he cried when he talked about his suspicion regarding Gabrielle's unfaithfulness. Even the western culture has a similar concept.


Any mother can tell you that their baby boy cried as loudly and as often as their daughters. I've seen plently of whiny boys who slumped down hard on the floor and brawl their hearts out because their parents won't buy them the toys that they wanted. But gradually you will see that as the boys grow up, their tendency to cry starts to dwindle.


Man-made opinions told them that they are not supposed to cry and it has already been taken for granted.


Tears is not a sign of weakness. Tears is a way of telling people that you are willing to be transparent before them and let them know what you have been going through. I won't despise a man who cried but I will salute him instead because it is such a brave thing to do. It does bring across the message that you are facing a problem and you acknowledge that you have a problem. It's better than being oblivious to it and then run away from it. Once you are able to face it, you can solve it gradually.


Of course there are many forms of tears. Tears of joy, tears of empathy, etc.


I know of this man, a great man in my opinion. He cries alongside with his counsellees when they cried because he really feels for them. Do I consider him as a weak man? No!


I will not let your tears be shed in vain.


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I am very happy now. Very happy. *Grins*

Once there was this king who had one court official who was always positive. Whenver any problems or issues crop up, he would always have a smile on his face and offer positive advice. As a result, he was highly regarded by the king, and given a very high post. This particular king loves hunting, and would always go on hunting trips with this favourite official.


On one particular hunting trip, the kind fell from his horse and broke his finger, as a result losing a segment of his finger. Back at the palace, he sought the advice of the official, about how he thought about the incident. The official replied in his usual cheerful self that it was actually a good thing to be injured. The king thought that the official was being sarcastic, so in his fury locked up the official in prison.


Few months later, the king went on another hunting trip, and unknowingly ventured into the territory of natives who live there. The natives captured the king and his escorts with him. The natives were planning to offer the king as a sacrifice as it was their practice to offer the leader as a sacrifice everytime they capture people. Just as they were about to sacrifice the king, the tribe leader noticed that the king had a segment missing from his finger. As it was a sin to offer a sacrifice with blemish, they decided to let the king go, and offered the next leader, which is another official who was with the king, as the sacrifice instead.


As a result, the king was able to return to his palace. When he returned, he remembered how the positive official had said that the hunting accident was actually a good thing. He immediately released the official and apologized to him. However, instead of blaming the king, the official said in his usual positive way that it was a good thing to be locked up also, and that all the things which happened were good.


The king was shocked, and asked that he could understand losing his finger was good, but how can being locked up in prison be good as well??


The official replied. Of coz its good that I had been in prison. If I had not been in prison, who do u think would be hunting with u when u were caught, and who would be offered as a replacement sacrifice instead?...


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Yah I do believe that things happen for a reason. If I didn't repeat my 2nd year back in my poly days, I wouldn't have met this friend who turned out to be one of my closest friends now. And I wouldn't have known how is it like to be backstabbed by a project mate - which helped me to learn how to avoid such things from happeneing again, to the best that I know how. I probably wouldn't have met certain people and do certain things that helped me to grow up to another level.


See the positive side to everything. Yah. Just like the way I am trying to think positive about my results right now. It's like an internal struggle. I have this nostalgic feeling of wondering if I will flunk any of my modules yet I am telling myself that I will pass. Internal conflict. I can see the angel on my left and the hissing devil on my right. Bleh!

I realised there's a very high failure rate in SIM. Almost all the seniors whom I know in SIM had failed at least one subject and repeated at least one module. What a shocker.


The word FAIL has been in my mind all these while. Results coming out on Wednesday. Already mentally prepared what to do if I fail any module. The results is not out yet but I'd already assumed that I failed my module.


Why am I so pessimistic? Anyway I had a bad semester. So I guess that had resulted in my pessimistic-ness. Nothing I can do now. Just pray and hope for the best. Yah...


No heart attack on that day please.

Should I stick to my white 5GB Creative Zen Micro or should I sell it and buy a 1GB Ipod Shuffle?


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Been running around in circles. Got to stop this. I'm going to run out of this circle. Back on track again.

You finally has a taste of your own medicine huh? Feels good right? Guess what? You deserve it, you know? What you did to others will come back to you one day. Well, it came sooner than expected.



Its actually none of my concern at all but from what I knew about you, you are no less than a lowdown jerk.



I don't understand. Are you trying to get back what you had already given up? Come on, save it. I have no idea what's your intention but save your effort and your money. Nobody's gonna appreciate them.



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I know that you are hiding something from me. Sighs. I rather I didn't know anything at all.



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Why did you have to come back? Why didn't you contact me when you are back? Maybe I am just someone of your past. And you don't want me to exist in your life anymore? Oh well. If that's really the case, so be it. I cannot do anything about it yah?

I had a dream. When I woke up, I found myself crying.

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I really want to get out of Singapore. I don't want to stay here. Right now, I am very determined to go for that short overseas trip that I wanted. Get out, get out, get out!

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Kinda regret changing my lime green Zen Micro for the white one. The green is so much nicer than the plain old white. Haiz.

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Well, was kinda surprised by the discovery. But since nothing was being done, so just let it be.

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Guess who? Haha

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Me and my one-liners. Ha!

This number is based on a scientific formula that compares how many questions you answered correctly on the Classic IQ Test relative to others.

Your Intellectual Type is Visual Mathematician. This means you are gifted at spotting patterns — both in pictures and in numbers. These talents combined with your overall high intelligence make you good at understanding the big picture, which is why people trust your instincts and turn to you for direction — especially in the workplace.

On my way home from work today (I'm back in Bakerzin again), there was this bunch of Indian girls who boarded the bus. They went right to the back of the bus. So what's the point of me mentioning them right?

They turned out to be quite a rowdy bunch of girls. So young yet so vulgar. I don't understand... by adding the word xxxx, does it make your sentence more impressive? NO! Sentences that go "I cannot stand him you know, xxxx him!" Oh my goodness. If they realise the actual meaning of the word, they wouldn't want to xxxx their enemy at all, will they?

I also don't get those people who used the word 'chee bong'. Obviously it's the modified version of the-word-that-shall-not-be-spoken, in short TWTSNBS. Ah... those girls used that TWTSNBS. I just cannot stand the word. It's just so degrading to women! And they are GIRLS! They are putting themselves down without realising! Oh so sad. If I'm not wrong, it's in dialect. So those Indian girls don't even know the meaning yet used it rampantly. *Smack my head and smack their puny-brained heads* Did I fail to mention that they were talking so loud, I believe even the bus driver can hear them loud and clear (reminder: they were sitting at the back of the bus).

So punctuating every sentence with xxxx and TWTSNBS sounds very cool huh? I certainly beg to differ. I was just this short of looking down on them, if not for the fact that they are so young. Just hope that they will utilise more of their brains in selecting the correct word to bring across what they really want to express.

No. This is not a racist issue. It's a language, or rather, choice-of-words issue.

Some of you may know that I'm just not so accomodating in terms of the choice of words or phrases used in conversations (I'm referring to vulgarities). I'm sure there are better ways to express that frustration or anger. Why add on redundant words into your conversations? So that they can let your sentences seem longer? There are many other ways to let yourself look and sound smarter yah. Using all those 'flowery' words doesn't make you a 'flowery' scholar but they do cheapen your image.

Grow up girls!

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I scratched my nose by accident! Now there's this scar on the side of my nose. I'm disfigured! ARGH!!!

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My shopping list:

1) A couple of Giordano polo tees. If their Buy 2 Get 1 Free promotion is still on, I should be getting green, pink and orange/white/yellow.
2) A tankini set. My current ones are getting loose.
3) A pair of jeans. Only $20! Cheap until pengs.
4) A couple of stuffs from La Senza.
5) A bag that brings out my feminine side. Simply owns too many sling bags - not so feminine. Must be big enough because I need it for school.
6) A pair of sandals/pointed-toe covered shoes with kitten heels.
7) A couple more tanktops.
8) An organiser.
9) A mp3 player. I cannot decide, Ipod mini or Ipod Shuffle or Samsung's.
10) A pair of black slippers from Value$ shop.

All I want for Christmas is:

1) An overseas trip. Anywhere will do, as long as I'm away from Singapore.
2) Dine in at the chocolate buffet in The Courtyard, Fullerton Hotel!!

I want to dine in at:

1) Prego
2) The Mexican restaurant in Holland Village
3) The steak house that has 6-course set meals that costs only $13.90
4) Dome
5) The sushi buffet in Suki Sushi
6) Bakerzin (all those new items in the menu) - they are real good!!
7) Chomp chomp - honey baked bbq chicken wings!

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So many desires, so little money. So many things, so little time. Life is but a bed of roses.

I worked 12-10.30pm yesterday and I did 11-10.30pm. So that's 22 hours in 2 days! Wow! And this is just the beginning. And my legs are aching like nobody's business. OUCH!



At the rate it's going.. I might be able to earn like 200+ to 300+ bucks in 2 weeks. So... I can pay my handphone bills, my debt and dine in at some nice places with Jason. Oh yeah...!

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One thing that scares me:
1. Cockroach

Four things I love the most:
1. My laptop.
2. My mobile.
3. Music.
4. Family and Friends.

Three most important things in my room:
1. My mobile.
2. Bed and mattress and pillows.
3. Wardrobe.

Three random facts about me:
1. I laugh out real LOUD.
2. I can repeat lame jokes over and over again with the same enthusiasm.
3. I love Japanese food.

Six things I plan to do before I die:
1. Have a fairy tale wedding.
2. Buy myself a diamond ring.
3. Trip to Sydney.
4. Be there at the English Premier League finals!
5. Revamp my bedroom.
6. My own enterprise.

Six things I can do:
1. remember numbers by heart once I typed the actual sequence.
2. chat with people I just met as if they are my longtime friends.
3. cross stitch.
4. dispose at least 2 big bags of unwanted stuffs whenever I do spring cleaning of my room.
5. design my own shoes.
6. make my own bags.

Five things I CAN'T do:
1. stop having my emotions written all over my face.
2. prevent myself from judging people based on first impression.
3. recognise my way around places.
4. have a serious talk without making jokes to lighten up the atmosphere.
5. forgive and forget certain people.

Three phrases I say the most:
1. shit
2. contestation and eluciate
3. hey

Two celeb crushes:
1. Hugh Jackman
2. Rob Thomas (oh my goodness!! you should see his Lonely No More mtv!!!!)

One LJer I'd love to see do this:
1. Everybody